03/08/2016
steps
13664
weight
203
Well,
a new step record today. If I did 13,000 steps every day
instead of sitting in front of this computer, I'd really knock off
the pounds.
Last
night was another of those “Should I be worried ?“times,
as I tried to drift off to sleep. Laying there, listening to the
ringing in my ears, actually more of a high-pitched tone, that seems
to get louder as everything quiets down at night, you become more
aware of your body. All those things you ignore as you go about the
day. The hip joint, that's tired of carrying all that extra weight,
or hundreds of nerves scattered here and there that just don't work
right anymore. The bottom of your toes on the right foot that have
been numb for several years now, and the constant itching on the
bridge of your nose. Both saying that you pushed it a bit too far in
the cold, and saying “You are not the indestructible guy who
walked on fire and ice 20 years ago”.
You
really start listening to the shallow breathing, and that feeling
that you just aren't getting enough air anymore. Is it the extra 40
lbs. you carry, arteries clogged with cholesterol and plaque, or
just 50 years of doing everything, and breathing in all that
came with it.
You
notice a dull ache in the upper right jaw, not a tooth as it seems to
spread out, and hints at the lower jaw now and then a nerve in the
left arm tweaks, a while later, 1
in the right.
“A
pending heart attack?”
You wonder as your jaw continues to ache, and you focus on every
sudden pain in your body, nerves popping off here and there,
seemingly at random.
You
lay there wondering what is wrong and where, as you drift off to
sleep.
In
the morning, I sit here writing down what I can remember, with the
realization that it's just things wearing out, like parts on an old
car. Some parts you can keep going with a little extra care, and a
few, with some extra money can be replaced. But 1 of these
days, the battery will finally give out, and she just won't start
anymore.
Remember!
1
bite at a time, and 1 day at a time!
KRASH
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